Did he feel the
anguished twisting
lo those many years
of angst and wind;
torment and despair.
If he had been a
person, we’d have
never heard an end.
Yet, the change was
daily and long, tedious
and unending. His life
silently never the same.
Poems of longing and attachment from this side of the JOURNEY, with an eye toward the Other-Side. All of the poems here were written by N. Thomas Johnson-Medland. Feel free to use them as you wish, just credit the author and send me a copy. tomjohnsonmedland@gmail.com
Did he feel the
anguished twisting
lo those many years
of angst and wind;
torment and despair.
If he had been a
person, we’d have
never heard an end.
Yet, the change was
daily and long, tedious
and unending. His life
silently never the same.
Sitting here in the
cool darkness of
morning, I fold my
memories back over
themselves, like a
bolt of unwound
linen or a batch of
Turkish taffy.
Watching each layer
settle into itself - over
and over onto the whole -
captures me with comfort.
I realize, without this pause
I would have missed the rich
hint of how a weave comes
from combinings, how a treat
comes from stirrings. Across
and through again; around
and yet around again.
Sitting still reveals the intrepid
motion of life across life. Warmth.
Again, and again, and yet one
more time again.
I come to where the dark
brown dirt and smoothed
pebbles reach toward the
ever changing water. Rolling
and lapping again and again
the moisture darkens the land;
earth and stone feed the river.
Hints of an endless familiarity
are tendered; in both directions.
That familiarity is mine, too.
Each time I approach this
solitary place I give pieces
of my me to that rolling and
lapping. Being here is being
me and I am somehow that -
in the contented stance I now
hold myself I realize I am home.
When I return, I am more this
place and it me. And more so
the next time. A cavalcade of
synergetic mitosis. I become
the thing that is becoming me.
Axon becomes dendrite and is
myelinated again and again and
yet still rolling and lapping again.
Pull up a log
and sit still long
enough to hear
the endless clicking
of the millions of
fallen and browning
leaves that lay strewn
upon the wooded
forest floor.
Tell me from
where it comes.
If you might.
Is it the crunching
of tiny bugs
looking for food?
Or the rise and
fall of each on
each in the
gentle wind.
As for me
it is nature’s
simple lure
to draw us in.
Stay. Only stay
until it no
longer matters.
Stay.
Did he feel the
anguished twisting
lo those many years
of angst and wind;
torment and despair.
If he had been a
person, we’d have
never heard an end.
Yet, the change was
daily and long, tedious
and unending. His life
silently never the same.
Hide your infinite
heart out among the
blueberries; so,
when my soul is
flagging and weak
I might go there and
wander - tasting the air
for you and closing my
eyes in a fondness
of your rich aroma.
Lure me in on the
whispers you planted
in the dirt. The ones
watered into leaf and
branch; giving full
bloom and sensual
exposure to the dewy
fronds of your sacred
and passionate love.
For, I am easily given
over to your wiles; and
haunted by the thrum
of your soul in my own.
So, hide your infinite
heart out among the
blueberries, ever so and
always. Please.
The darkness given off
by the shadows on the hills
calls the heart into a collusion
with wonder and suspicion.
Do they portend something
more than the beauty they
cast across the surface of the
earth and precincts of the eyes.
When do we read more into
what we behold; and, when
is that the way to go. For now
I’ll stop at grandeur not at omen.
And the river flows on by,
unaware of any hint of dilemma.
Grandeur, not omen.